4th trimester

so i had this big venting post.

but nobody wants to hear all that.

so i erased it all....
here is an update on our little situation still rumbling around in me.

im still 3 cm
im still 50% effaced
her head is literally squishing down causing unbearable amounts of pressure
im still not sleeping - even with sedatives

and well, to put it bluntly, i think i am having a major case of the baby blues. so if i am not calling you back it is cause i am not great company or conversation right now - believe me, i am sparing you the misery. i even erased my first post to save you all.

definition of baby blues (of course this is supposed to happen after the kid is born) :
• Your emotions will be in flux. Within the first week or two of giving birth, many new moms experience the "baby blues." You may find yourself moody and weepy, exhausted, unable to sleep, or feeling trapped or anxious. Your appetite can change, too — you might want to eat more or less. The good news is this emotional upheaval will generally pass within two to three weeks.

don't worry, you can thank me later for editing myself out for a bit.